I lost my anime convention virginity today... And it was bittersweet. I went with Saegan as L and he dressed as Light... After lunch he changed to Kiba. I made him a deathnote and everything. I stole a cute hat... it has bunny ears! Gya! Lol I totally nerded out to holy crap. Me and all the other Ls there danced in a circle (Gay? I think so!) It was superfun. We also met up with Mello Matt and Near and wrote names in Saegan's deathonote. The girl dressed as Matt wasn't wearing pants and kept asking me and Saegan to kiss so she could take a picture. We probably made out like thirty or so times.
By the end of the day we were really sore, cold, tired and hungry and wanted to get home. This is when things took a turn for the worst. My parents were both drunk, driving in downtown portland and unhappy to pick us up. Of course, WHile in the car I asked if I could go to Saegan's house afterwards (because he started fingering me in public and i needed him to finish the job LOL) and of course my mom started yelling at me. I told Saegan to cover his ears so he didn't have to listen to me fight with my mom. Little did I know he wanted to hear what my mom really was like when she fights with me, and didn't cover his ears. I then told my mom it was the last day I could spend with Saegan before school started and we wouldn't see eachother much since we go to diff schools. SO my mom started fucking SCREAMING at me, calling me a bitch and a shit and a fucker and a douche bag... All the things a mother SHOULD NOT say to her child. So Saegan (Note I have never seen Saegan get remotely angry)stood up for me and screamed at my mom: "HEY! You should never talk to your daughter like that!" Which made me cry because my mom started telling Saegan to go die and go rot in hell... (My dad was trying to drive and calm my mom down at the same time)and told him to fuck off again (I started crying really loud because Saegan was pissed off) and then Saegan started screaming back at my mom saying that she was a terrible mother and that if she was so angry to punch him... My mom hit him with her purse. I was still crying like a baby because I didn't know what to do and I couldn't help the love of my life. After my dad quieted them down Saegan hushed me up and put his arms around me saying that none of this was my fault... That my mom is just drunk and that I don't deserve this. My mom heard me begin to cry again and so she turned around and saw Saegan's arms around me and screamed at the top of her lungs "Get your fucking hands off my daughter!" And Saegan yelled back "I'm helping your daughter stop crying!" And then my mom started screaming again and my dad told her it was okay and my mom said "YOU SUPPORT THIS!? FUCK YOU!" And grabbed the soda... That's when Saegan got really pissed and said "All I'm doing is helping her! Something you never do!" That's probably when she threw the soda at Saegan... Saegan then got really really fucking pissed and let go of me to yell at my mom... All this time I was crying loudly again and didn't hear a word any of them said. All I can remember is Saegan telling my mom to punch him and Saegan returning to me to tell me he didn't care about the soda and if my mom had hit him... All he cared about was that I was okay. Eventually we got home and my dad told me and Saegan to wait in the car... A few minutes passed as my mom and dad did whatever the hell they were doing in the house while Saegan told me I was a good daughter and I dint deserve this and it wasn't my fault...
Eventually my dad came back out and started drying up the soda in the front seat when we were interrupted by glass crashing everywhere. Turns out my mom had thrown something through the upstairs window....
My dad went to go yell at my mom and Saegan returned to making sure I was okay... (I have never ever ever seen Saegan cry) ... He took me into his arms and I said "I don't want to sleep here tonight... I don't want to live here anymore."
Apparently that was enough to make Saegan cry. All I heard was his voice breaking in my ear and I knew it... I begged him not to cry. It crushed my heart to know I brought him to tears. I couldn't stand it. I looked up at him, tears running down his face and soaking his cheeks. I could feel my heart breaking and I started to cry even harder. I hated seeing him like that... I tried to make him stop but it broke my heart even more to look at him. Eventually I got him to stop crying and I let him know I loved him. The rest of the night was havoc until his mom came to pick him up and now I'm over at Lilly's and everything's all good and jolly... Whatever. If Lilly stopped talking about diarrhea I'd be crying my eyes out. Peace out girl scout.